It's been way to long!!

Wow!!  I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted. SOOOO much has changed....lol!!  I've moved, started a new job, Brannen started a new job, and we're expecting our first baby!!  WooHoo!!  Though anyone who reads this already knows all this information, and if for some reason they don't then dang!!  Where have you been?!?!

I honestly don't even know where to start or what to type. Things have been good, and bad lately. A lot of that is the pregnancy though. Hormones running crazy! Though I had a good friend tell me today that I should never let the thought of my "hormones" over ride what I'm feeling, cuz a lot of times my feelings are valid. Just the pregnancy hormones may be making me more in-tune with what others are doing and/or making me sensitive to it all. I like what she said, and I'm taking it to heart. Lately I have been down playing a lot of what I've been feeling, cuz I assumed it was just my hormones being stupid, but now I'm not so sure.

Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had in a very long time. Even post pregnancy! I woke up with anxiety like no other! And I'm not the type of person who gets anxiety. I can only think of one other time that I got it like this, and that was shortly after losing both of my grandpa's. I think at that point it just all caught up with me, and anxiety is how my body dealt with it. Anyways, yesterday I woke up with it, and just could not shake it. I cried in the shower. Got out & Brannen asked me if I was ok, and I cried again. Then I went, and did my hair & makeup came back into the bedroom and he wrapped his arms around me to give me a hug & say its ok and I lost it again. I finally made it to work, and wasn't here 30 minutes, and my mom called & I lost it on the phone with her. I felt so bad! *I love you Mom!!!*  Needless to say this kept up most of the day. Brannen was never gone from my side for very long though, which I was extremely greatful for! I was so glad yesterday was his day off, cuz I honestly don't know what I would have done without him there comforting me like he was.

Today has been better. I woke up in a pretty good mood, but then it went downhill. I feel like no one cares that I'm pregnant. I know I know, people do care. It just seems like the people who do care are all the people who don't live close to me. Again, I know that the people near me do care, they just have their own way of showing it. Also I think I've glamourized it all a little too much in my head, and have been expecting too much of people. Who knows! It's just that I have other friends who are pregnant too, and I see how their family & friends are, and I want the same. Anyways after a good long talk with a great friend (same friend who said not to discount my feelings to hormones) I have been feeling a lot better the rest of the day :)

So to conclude this way long post :)  I'm going to try and start posting on here more. I think maybe getting at least some of my feelings out through here will help me feel better. You don't have to agree with what I have to say. You don't even have to like it. But the beauty of it is, this is MY blog and I can post what I want. Please feel free to comment how ever you see fit though, and we'll see what happens!  :)