Tired.......

Weigh in this morning......215.8!!! Now that's not down a lot from my last post, but it's still down, and that's all that matters! :)

So I've got a new plan of attach. We have finally set a date for the wedding......June 15, 2013!!! What I am aiming for now is to lose 1 pound a week until the wedding. Had I thought of this all a little sooner then I could have tried to lose 52 pounds, but that's ok. I'm about 6 weeks behind, so that leaves me with 46 pounds I can potentially lose. 46 pounds would be huge to me!! Would make me feel so much better, and make me feel & look better for the wedding. Now in theory 1 lb a week shouldn't be a big deal right??? Wrong! So I'm gonna need all the help, and encouragement I can get! If anyone has any ideas I am all ears! I really need to start walking. I know that will help a bunch, and I know I say this is almost every post. It's just hard for me to motivate myself. I've always been that way. I can motivate someone else, but not myself. 'llI get it figured out though, cuz I really do want to try & lose 46 lbs before the wedding.

The trip home was awesome!! Shawna did amazing on the drive down & back. Down was super easy cuz it was night time. The trip back though she did just as good! I am so proud of her. I can honestly say that there aren't many people know from either side of her family that she hasn't met! LOL!! We got in Saturday morning to my folks place at about 530am. Slept for a bit, then it was off to my Aunt Janice's for a family reunion bbq. After that we drove 2 hours to my Grandma's house & stayed the night with her. Sunday morning my Uncle Mark & his wife came to visit us at Grandma's house. About noon we took of for Brannen's Grandpa's (Shawna's great-grandpa that she share's her birthday with) and spent the rest of the day with his family. Headed back to my folks place late that night, and then spent all day Monday with them. Had some friends come by for a bit whose daughter was also born the same day as Shawna :) I think they will forever be friends. Within a few minutes of being around each other they were cooing together, crying at the same time, and eating at the same time. It was too cute!!

Unfortunately there wasn't enough time to see everyone, and there were SO MANY that I wanted to see. Really wish we could get home for a whole week, but it's hard for Brannen to get that much time off. Maybe I'll just have to make a trip without him. We'll see though.

Some quick info on the wedding. Again, it's going to be June 15th, and it will be in Idaho. Originally we were thinking it was going to be in the Twin Falls area, but now we're thinking the Boise area somewhere. With my folks living there it'll just make it easier. Having some place to set things up, have a base center, and just some place to stay that won't cost money. We're currently looking into places to have the ceremony & reception at in the area. If you know of anywhere please let me know! As we get closer, and I have more info I'll be sure to post it :)  I should have just about everyone's address from the baby shower's. We would love for everyone to be there, but understand that most people from Washington probably aren't able to make it. I'm thinking what we may do is have a reception of sorts here in Washington sometime after the wedding. That way everyone can come hang out with us, and help us celebrate :)

That's it for today. Will try to post again later this week. Love y'all!!!

Good & not so good........

I didn't get a chance to post last week so I'm covering that, and today's weigh in. Last week was really good! Wednesday I was up to 215.6, and by Saturday I was back down to 215.2!! Yay!! So over all I just stayed the same. Now today's weigh in.......not as good. I went up exactly 1 pound! 216.2........least it's not more! I'm honestly not surprised at all. I had my visitor all last week, and I swear to God you'd have thought my throat had been seperated from my stomach. I COULD NOT stop eating!! It's finally passed though, and I'm starting to get my eating back to normal. Hoping that by Friday I can get that pound back off.

Heading for Idaho this weekend. SO excited first off to get away for the weekend & just to be home.....I miss my home. Second, for our families to finally meet Shawna :)  The trip down itself should be a little interesting, but fingers crossed it goes well. We'll be going down Friday night after work, so I'm hoping Shawna sleeps through most of it. The trip back on the other hand will be during the day. We'll make do though.

Kind of in a funk tonight. Not 100% sure why. I know some of it, but not sure what else has got me. Anymore I feel like I'm always just sitting here by myself. Brannen works his ass off, and needs/deserves all the sleep he can get. I just miss having him, or anyone, to talk to at night when I'm not tired, and ready for bed when he is. It's not just the nights either. Most days I find myself feeling lonely, and wishing for someone to talk to, or do something with. Of course Shawna does her best to keep me company, and talk to me, but well there's only so much a 2 month old can do to help out ;) lol!! And it's not like all I do is sit around the house doing nothing. I'm working part-time 3 days a week, and the other 2 days I'm usually on the go, or doing something around the house. I rarely ever just sit here anymore & do nothing.  Just no one to do any of it with. Sucks when all your friends are scattered across the U.S. I know I know....I need to just get over myself. Your all probably right.........

Lots of water.........

So Tuesday's weigh in did not go well. I stepped on the scales to see 218.6 pop up........WHAT??? OMG??? That can't be right?!?!  Well once I calmed down, and thought it through I remembered something someone told me one time, that you can't gain 3 pounds in 3 days. That if the scales shows that it means you have water weight. So at that point I start to feel better knowing that there is hope to see a better number on Friday (today) So all week long I have been drinking water like it's going outta style. Ok......not really, but I have been getting a good amount in so I could get my system flushed out. So this morning I get on the scale, and I'm back down to 215.2!! WooHoo!!! Over all, no actual weight loss, but at least I didn't actually gain those 3 lbs either ;)

Shawna was 2 months old yesterday. Where does the time go? I know I know, it'll go faster & faster all the time. I'm tryin to take as many picture's as I can so I have something to look back on. My folks came into town late last night for the weekend. First time my dad has seen her, and let me just say......it was love at first sight :)  Miss Shawna already has her Grandpa Brown wrapped around her little finger :) It's so cute.......I'll have her in her bouncy chair, and he'll go stand next to her, or infront of her & just talk to her. Or if she's laying in her playpen (which is next to the couch) he'll go sit on the very edge closest to the playpen, and just watch her or talk to her if she's fussy or if she's just chattering :) I do believe our family has changed forever :)  LOL!!

Well I do believe I'm gonna keep this short, and take myself to bed. Hope everyone had a good week, and has an even better weekend ahead! Love y'all!!!