Pity party, table of one!

Why is it usually the people closest to you that seem to hurt your feelings the most?? The sad thing is I'm sure they don't even realize they're doing it. I know I'm just being stupid, and having myself a pity party over here, but well aren't we all entitled to them once in awhile?!

Some days I just feel so removed from the life going on around me. Removed from the friends that are in my life. I feel like people don't want to take the time to find out the person you truly are. They "assume" they know you, and then just go with that. Think that you don't really have that much in common so they don't include you in anything. When really you are probably the best person to understand & who would want to participate.

Guess it really doesn't matter. We make our own happiness, right? I really need to start living by these words. I need to stop letting other peoples decisions, or "ideas" of me affect my life. I have an amazing daughter, and a man who loves me without question.

I guess I just needed to vent these thoughts, and feelings out. Sometimes that helps more than anything, to just get it all out. And I'm sure this post probably doesn't make much sense, but in the end it doesn't have to, other than to me. I don't need validation about how I'm feeling, and I don't need anyone's pity. Again, just needed to get it out of my head.

Trip...

Hey all!! So we made it back from our trip home to Idaho. It was a great trip! Very fast & a little stressful for a bit, but a great trip over all!! We were able to see my Grandma, Uncle Mark, Jaime, and all of Brannen's family :)  I also was able to eat at my favorite local pizza joint!! I was one very happy girl at that point! ;) lol!!  Shawna ended up constipated from all the traveling & lack of eating right, but we muscled through it & have already gotten her little system cleaned out since we've been home.

Brannen had to be back to work today, but my amazing boss ;) gave me the day off. That way I was able to keep Shawna home for the whole day & she never have to even look at the carseat! Which is good considering by the time we got home yesterday she was crying anytime we would take her out of it & then try to put her back in. So her & I have just been lazing around the house today. Got myself unpacked, but still haven't tackled her stuff yet. The house, of course, is a wreck from us coming home & just unloaded the car into the middle of the house! I really should also get all the cat hair vaccuumed up, but it'll wait until later. Right now I'm snuggling & playing with my baby girl ;)  House work can wait!

Not too much else going on. Valentine's Day is tomorrow. We're keeping it pretty low keyed, and probably won't actually celebrate until the weekend. Hope everyone enjoys the day though. Whether you've got something special in your life or not. There is always someone in your life you love (kids, parents, etc) and they can always use an extra show of love :)

Love to all!!

Ramblings

It's been awhile since I blogged. Was blogging quite a bit on the other one I had started with my 2 girls, but they have kinda stopped. So thought maybe I'd jump back over to mine for awhile.

Things are going ok right now. It's February in Washington so it only gets just so good. Kinda always gloomy, but thankfully not much rain this year. Shawna is growing like a weed. Has her 9 month check-up today. She'll be 9 months tomorrow!! Can you believe it!! Where has the time gone?? Before I know it she's going to be going to school, then be a teenager, driving & then out of the house. It all goes WAY to fast!! I just want to keep her this age forever.

Wedding plans are coming together. Slowly, but at least I'm making head way, and that's something. Got the flowers taken care of, and the catering all figured out. Just gotta get some money coming in so I can finalize a few things. Really need to get my ass in gear & get the invitations figured out!! It'll happen though. Or it won't!! LOL!!

Still working on getting some weight off. Seems like I have a good day....eat well, get some exercise, drink my water & do all the things I'm suppose to do. Then I have 3 bad days!! ARRGGG!!! Ever since having Shawna I just can't seem to get a grasp on my eating. It's the strangest thing. Before I could be really really bad, but when I finally put my mind to it I could be good. Now even when I want to be good my body fights against me & it turns in to one of those days where I do nothing but eat all day!! DAMN I hate those!!

Ok now that I've done some pointless rambling I'm gonna go for now! Happy Monday y'all. Hope it's a great one.