Crap day

Why does it seem like the bad days are starting to out-weigh the good days? Today I just want to cry. I did cry actually.

I am so beyond stressed. Stressed in my personal life. Stressed in my work life. Stressed period!!

There's never enough money to go around. Some how that's my fault.

Bugaboo basically hates me today. Doesn't want anything to do with me. Guess it's a good thing her Grandma is home now. Otherwise she'd be in a perpetual "fit".

I just want to lay my head on the desk, and close my eyes.

A very stiff drink, and a 3 month nap......is that too much to ask??

Yesterday was good

I meant to post last night, but got busy with FaceTime calls, and then went to bed.

Considering yesterday was Monday, it was a really good day over all!!! :) Had a good day here at work. Bugaboo was in good spirits all day. Got the keys picked up for our new office. Had lunch with a friend & then went and got my nails done. Last night was just some FaceTime calls so Bugaboo could see everyone, and some catch up time for mommy with her friend :)  Went to bed at a fairly decent time, and feel like I slept pretty good.

Woke up fairly well this morning & was feeling pretty good, but after having to deal with Dish for 45 mins, and dropping Bugaboo off at school/daycare (her screaming as I walked out the door) I'm getting a bit sluggish. Just need to get my head cleared, and wake up!!!

Here's to hoping Tuesday starts to turn around!!

Another lonely night

Tonight is another one of those nights when the loneliness is creeping in. Feels like it's taking over at times. And I feel like there is nothing I can do to stop it. 

Was suppose to go see a friend this weekend & her newborn. Yet, I couldn't bring my self to leave the house. No, I don't have anxiety. I'm not afraid to go out. I just lose all motivation, energy & care. Unless Bugaboo needs something, I become an absolute slug. I feel useless & lifeless. I HATE this feeling!

Feel like I could just sleep for days. Though, of course, that's not a possibility. 

I can't wait for hubby to be home. I'm just so drained from doing it all, all by myself, all the time!

I feel myself wanting to cry over nothing. I hate that feeling too. 

I'm just so tired...........

Friday

So the last few days haven't been too bad. I actually got my butt outta bed yesterday at a decent time, got dressed, pulled my hair up & put my makeup on so that I was ready for the day. Got Shawna up, and cooked us some breakfast. Once we were all ready to go, we headed over to our house. I actually got the final coat of paint on the walls in Shawna's room, and then got a few boxes unpacked in the kitchen. To find out that most of the outlets in the kitchen don't work!!! Time to call the landlord! LOL!!

Was gonna try to crash early last night after doing all of that, but a friend was passing through & needed a place to crash. So I was up late waiting for him to show up. But I am at work, and half ass functioning....lol! Today is a fairly easy day, so no worries.

Gonna try to head up over the hill tomorrow to go see a friend, her son & her new baby girl!! I've got some of Shawna's left over toys from when she was little that I am going to take over to her. I haven't seen her in a while, so I'm really excited! Actually getting out of the house & going to visit a friend. Been a very long time since I was able to do that!

Hope everyone has a great weekend & a Happy New Year!