Another lonely night

Tonight is another one of those nights when the loneliness is creeping in. Feels like it's taking over at times. And I feel like there is nothing I can do to stop it. 

Was suppose to go see a friend this weekend & her newborn. Yet, I couldn't bring my self to leave the house. No, I don't have anxiety. I'm not afraid to go out. I just lose all motivation, energy & care. Unless Bugaboo needs something, I become an absolute slug. I feel useless & lifeless. I HATE this feeling!

Feel like I could just sleep for days. Though, of course, that's not a possibility. 

I can't wait for hubby to be home. I'm just so drained from doing it all, all by myself, all the time!

I feel myself wanting to cry over nothing. I hate that feeling too. 

I'm just so tired...........