Hiding......

So I know it's been awhile since I've posted, but well I've been hiding. Hiding from you all, and hiding from myself. I am up to 220 lbs, and I'm no happy about it at all! I don't know what to do. Seems like the more I try to eat better, the more weight I gain, the more bummed I feel & then my appetite goes crazy! It's that time of the month right now & I swear I can't stop eating!!! I've always been bad the week before, but ever since I started having periods after having Shawna I am famished the week before & the week of. I don't get it! I wish it would stop though :(

Got so much going on right now. Trying to plan a wedding from out of state, my MOH is in Colorado, my BM is in Montana & its just not working!!!  GRRRRRR!!! I can't find a freaking venue that won't cost me an arm & a leg. Haven't gotten colors picked out. Can't decide on flowers. And.............................blah!!!!

Ok, I so can't concentrate on this tonight. At least I've posted something, and updated everyone on my shitty weight gain. Hoping my body will figure out what it wants to do soon. Either that or I need to get my head outta my ass & do something.